Caleb C.: November 23, 2011

November 23, 2011

(8:52pm)

Today was horrible. Woke up late and walked into school at 7:43 (which is late to me), had no clue what I was doing in AP Bio, I dropped my container with my butterscotch krimpets on the ground and they fell frosting side down (I was devistated. I just looked at them in disbelief and almost just felt like crying. I didn't even want to bring the container, my mom made me because it was more “decorative”), I saw my mentee and completely forgot to give her my contact information (I've really slacked with her. Sorry, Kayla, not your fault), this boy (who I won't put his name out there) would not leave me alone (and couldn't or wouldn't take a hint that I was in a hurry and didn't want to be bothered) so I just gave him some food so he would go away, and I was a little late in getting home when my dad called that he left a message on my answering machine, but my brother was having his hissy fits and said that the message was for me to reschedule my orthodotist appointment. I called my dad about 20 times to see what was up, but he wouldn't answer. When I asked my brother exactly what the message said, he told me to reschedule, so I did. The next minute, my dad called and said that he was about 3 minutes away and for me to be ready. When I told him that Micah told me to reschedule, he flipped out and asked what made me think that he would want me to reschedule, then hung up. I literally threw my house phone across the room and broke down and sobbed (not teared, not cried, SOBBED). I stopped enough so that I could try and reschedule my original appointment, but the lady gave me a whole nother number that did not work, then my dad called and told me to come down. I was so frantic that I forgot my jacket, so afterwards, I froze my butt off. Got home, got yelled at for dropping my food and breaking our first lady's (pastor's wife) cake container. Also checked my grades, and I'm devistatingly failing BOTH of my AP classes. I also have to complete all of my applications by next Thursday to meet early action for some of my schools, and 1) I still don't have a solid essay, 2) none of my teachers know how to upload their letters of recomendations to the Common App (sorry Doña, but I think that the common app is very dumb), and 3) I don't even have all of my “stuff” together. So Carney, to answer your question about how I feel about college, I am scared out of my mind!!! I mean, I can't even handle the trivial things here in high school, how can I possibly be on my own and handle the “BIG” world? I feel like I'm going to splat on my face and not have anyone there to pick me up. Let's face it, I would lost without Doña, Mrs. Cathirell, or my sister. I won't have any of them next year. I guess I just need to grow up.