This is one thing that made me angry today. Right now, I can't stand anyone in my life. My family tells and fusses about everything (EVERY, SINGLE, FREAKING THING), my friends (some of them, not all) don't know when to shut the heck up, and it's not like I can trust ANYONE with how I completely feel or say 100% of the things I would like to say. This is my senior year. My SENIOR YEAR!!! I feel as if I'm gonna explode before I get on stage. I had Cap & Gown photos today, and all the while, I felt like throwing up and leaving. I just put on a fake persona and pretended to be happy, but really, I just got more angry the more I sat there waiting for my pictures. I got called up and the photographer just told me to smile. It took literally all I had to look pleasant. She showed me the pictures, and I lied and said they were good. If I told the truth, the color red makes me sick sometimes. So does gold. I'm not saying I have an aversion toward them, just that I don't like them much, except for foods (some) and jewelry. Other than that, I don't care for them. Black is my color. Always will be. And no, I'm not a goth. It just represents more to me than anything else in the world. I went through the rest of the day just wanting to go to sleep. I actually did. I fell asleep in band. After school, had to meet with my sisters. didn't see them for 10 minutes. I was so frustrated. Fast forward, My parents don't care about my stuff, only theirs (Chrysta). I can't even go drop off a job application without having to deal with her. I just need to hurry up and graduate. Don't know a specific path, but so long as it's forward and away, I'm good.