February 23, 2012

I know this has gone through everyone's mind. This is just a funny song, I had to share it.

Also:

In honor of Black History Month:

The Black Prayer
by Unknown

Did You Make Me Black Lord ...
Lord ... Why did you make me black?
why did you make someone
the world would hold back?

... Black is the color of dirty clothes,
of grimy hands and feet...
Black is the color of darkness,
of tired beaten streets...

Why did you give me thick lips,
a broad nose and kinky hair?
Why did you create someone
who receives the hated stare?

Black is the color of the bruised eye
when someone gets hurt...
Black is the color of darkness,
black is the color of dirt.

Why is my bone structure so thick,
my hips and cheeks so high?
Why are my eyes brown,
and not the color of the sky?

Why do people think I'm useless?
How come I feel so used?
Why do people see my skin
and think I should be abused?

Lord, I just don't understand...
What is it about my skin?
Why is it some people want to hate me
and not know the person within?

Black is what people are "Labeled"
when others want to keep them away...
Black is the color of shadows cast...
Black is the end of the day.

Lord you know my own people mistreat me,
and you know this just ain't right...
They don't like my hair, they don't like my
skin, as they say I'm too dark or too light!

Lord, don't you think
it's time to make a change?
Why don't you redo creation
and make everyone the same?

God's Reply:

Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black?

I made you in the color of coal
from which beautiful diamonds are formed...
I made you in the color of oil,
the black gold which keeps people warm.

Your color is the same as the rich dark soil
that grows the food you need...
Your color is the same as the black stallion and panther,
Oh what majestic creatures indeed!

All colors of the heavenly rainbow
can be found throughout every nation...
When all these colors are blended,
you become my greatest creation!

Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool,
such a beautiful creature is he...
I am the shepherd who watches them,
I will ALWAYS watch over thee!

You are the color of the midnight sky,
I put star glitter in your eyes...
There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...
That's why your cheeks are so high!

You are the color of dark clouds
from the hurricanes I create in September...
I made your lips so full and thick,
so when you kiss...they will remember!

Your stature is strong,
your bone structure thick to withstand the
burden of time...
The reflection you see in the mirror,
that image that looks back, that is MINE!

So get off your knees,
look in the mirror and tell me what you see?
I didn't make you in the image of darkness...
I made you in the image of ME!

This is one thing that made me angry today. Right now, I can't stand anyone in my life. My family tells and fusses about everything (EVERY, SINGLE, FREAKING THING), my friends (some of them, not all) don't know when to shut the heck up, and it's not like I can trust ANYONE with how I completely feel or say 100% of the things I would like to say. This is my senior year. My SENIOR YEAR!!! I feel as if I'm gonna explode before I get on stage. I had Cap & Gown photos today, and all the while, I felt like throwing up and leaving. I just put on a fake persona and pretended to be happy, but really, I just got more angry the more I sat there waiting for my pictures. I got called up and the photographer just told me to smile. It took literally all I had to look pleasant. She showed me the pictures, and I lied and said they were good. If I told the truth, the color red makes me sick sometimes. So does gold. I'm not saying I have an aversion toward them, just that I don't like them much, except for foods (some) and jewelry. Other than that, I don't care for them. Black is my color. Always will be. And no, I'm not a goth. It just represents more to me than anything else in the world. I went through the rest of the day just wanting to go to sleep. I actually did. I fell asleep in band. After school, had to meet with my sisters. didn't see them for 10 minutes. I was so frustrated. Fast forward, My parents don't care about my stuff, only theirs (Chrysta). I can't even go drop off a job application without having to deal with her. I just need to hurry up and graduate. Don't know a specific path, but so long as it's forward and away, I'm good.

January 14, 2012- Valentine's Day

(10:12pm)

Okay, so my entries have been a bit...sporadic. But let me start by saying: I love/hate Valentine's Day. It's true. I hate how everyone spends just one day presenting their love and life, but tomorrow we hate eachother. Plus, suppose you give a gift to someone, and they smile and take it. They could be feigning that smile and hating the gift, or not like you in that manner.

 

Anyways, got a lollipop from one of my gal pals (I can't say “girl friend” without it sounding like “girlfriend”):

It was cute.

Learned how diamonds were made:

Awesome. I might get a pet so that when it dies I don't have to stuff or bury it. I can just turn it into a diamond. Everybody loves diamonds ☺.

Found out something cool:

3.23.12

3 Victors living in District 12

23 Tributes die every year

12 Districts in Panem

A girl on FB wrote that. It was on a page.

Using Twitter a lot more

 

Still don't like it, but reading The Hunger Games has inspired me to.

Speaking of inspire, my badge has stirred up some interesting things. Mr. Klein points and mentions it every time he wants kids to behave, one teacher stopped me in the halls to talk about it, some students have called and identified me by it, even babies love it. I would let them play with it, but sharp edges would cut them. If I ever become famous or have my own company, that will definitely be my label or trademark.

With all of these poems and stories I write, I better have a book or movie out. I have hundreds of ideas circulating in my head, even ideas similar to hunger games.

Last thing, I hate myself SOOOOOO MUCH for not talking to my robotics team about the conflict with the talent show, now Hyperion can't do their's. My heart hit the ground and I felt it thump hard once as it impacted (or maybe it was Doña hitting me on the back and calling me a “big jerk”). I wrote a huge apology to everyone in Hyperion, but I doubt anyone will read it seeing as NOBODY seems to check their emails. Only 2 people ever respond back to me when I email them: Ms. Dauka and Kim. Anyways, going to bed.

Peace out

January 12, 2012

(8:32pm)

My father is a totalitarian parent. I went to my room because I was bored and waiting for Jacquynn to get off of the computer. He got mad and told me to leave my room. I went to go get some ice cream (which I had asked my mom about 5 minutes prior) and he said “Oh, you weren't thinking about no ice cream when you were in that room.”, and when my mom said that I had already asked her, he made another remark about me trying to be sneaky.

There's also the instances where he just took the Xbox from my room because he didn't see anything else I could do in my room. I was just thinking, WTH! Look around! It's a BEDROOM!!! MY BEDROOM!!! Give me a cot, a table, and a light, I will STILL be in there!!! It's the only thing I can call MY OWN!!!

Anyways, can't believe I left my Catching Fire book at school. I already have fines for 2 books I already turned in. I hate that I can't prove it, but I know I turned those books in. They probably got taken out of the library before they got checked in. >:( mad

I know y'all are tired of me talking about Hunger Games, but here are some songs I downloaded from youtube (I'll leave you with that, because I could write a whole blog entry on the whole subject. Enjoy☺)

January 9, 2012

(9:10pm)

So Kennedy is my ally. To be completely honest, I'm cool with it. At first I wasn't too cool, because of the Atlas/Hyperion thing (I just want Themis to beat them). Plus, I don't know Kennedy. If I had to do a comparison of how we are, I would say that I know as much as Katniss knew Peeta. Dispite that, it does give me a chance to know her. It's a good thing we have 2 classes together ☺

Another thing, I'm soooo excited that the kids that we did Jr. Achievement with wrote us letters. I'm missing one though :(. One of them wrote me the sassiest letter ☺

I should write them back later.

February 6, 2012

Yes, they have another unofficial trailer out for Catching Fire. Can't wait.

But really, look at this:

This man poured out his heart, and in return, there were some ignorant comments made and some even had the nerve to dislike the video. I'm just sitting there like "WTF!!! Show some respect...." The dots are there because I went on a rant that I can't put up on my blog. If I did, I'd be in trouble. All I can say is that this man spoke the truth. He is in my prayers. I can't say much, I'm going to bed.

Peace out.

February 1, 2012

So yesterday I read Hunger Games up to Rue's death and almost cried. Saw this video and broke out in tears:

Saw these videos and couldn't wait for March 23rd:

Everyday I pick up the book or search youtube, I want to see the movie.

Speaking of my day, it comes down to one thing: I was depressed and tired. Carney was probably first to notice. He told me I got a 100% on my Hunger games quiz, but I didn't budge a smile. I isolated myself from everyone else and just worked by myself in the library. Mrs. Cathirell knew something was wrong from the start. She came over to me and said “you look like a real phantom now, kneeling down so that she could see under my hood. That was the first time she had EVER seen me crying. I won't go into details, but yeah, I was crying. Not much to say for today, sorry ;)