January 4, 2012- Toast for Change

Wrap up from 1/3/12

(10:57pm)

Question: why is Jaelen on the phone with nobody, but won't give the phone to me? I mean seriously, she ain't doin nothin!!! I was literally like WTH (I mean “heck”). It's not even because I want to talk on it that much as her just being on the phone with no one on it.....for 1 hour. Good thing is that I got so many friend requests accepted from people I met at the conference. I even got one from this one girl I went evangilizing with. She was so cool.

(8:31am)

In class, AP Bio. I tell my friend too much stuff. He was talking to me about last year when I told Doña that I was dropping out of AVID, and when she ALMOST kicked me out, and I was crying.

(11:35pm)

It's my god-sister's, Megan, birthday today. I didn’t get to wish her a happy birthday.

Also, I had an orthodontist meeting yesterday, so I got my braces tightened. They hurt a little. I told my friend about them. She laughed, but it was a sympathetic one.

I also, earlier, talked to a freshman named Jasmine. She has a twin. They are my two favorite freshmen here in Maryland, though I don’t know any but 5 or 6 freshmen. I find them very interesting. Jasmine and her sister (whose name I forgot) always call me “Inspire” because of my pin.

Toast for Change:

My toast for change has to do with pretty much all of the areas we listed. I have a very sporadic self esteem. It effects everything I do. Some days I'll get up ready to tackle anything, others, the world will be on top of me. I need to develop, still, a positive way to boost myself, whether it's not listening to those who say that I'm not good enough for college, or talking to someone who can keep me on track emotionally.

I also need to find a job. I have college, dues, and what ever summer plans I may have to pay for. I already started on a job application, and the manager said that he was going to review it, I just need to pray and hope I get it. It's not completely just for me.

Some of the choices I have made need some change. I've made some poor choices when it came to prioritizing and planning. The more I plan, the more chaotic everything seems, but even still, no plan can be destructive.

Not much to say today. I slept most of the day.